A Search for Faith

When I was five, my grandparents took on vacation with them to Houston, TX. My grandfather had some sort of firefighter's conference, and that meant a great trip for me and my grandmother. The first day that we arrived at the hotel, I was overwhelmed. Well we got check in and moved into out temporary home for the week, then we hit the favorite place of any five year old at a hotel, we headed for the pool.

So we got to the pool and my grandpa got in and i was standing on the side of the pool and he yells jump. So what did I do? I jumped! But why? Because I knew that no matter what, my grandfather was going to catch me.

Why can't I have that kind of faith in God? A kind of faith where I would be able to jump when he says just because I know that he is there to catch me.

Now back to Houston. I remember the time when I jumped and my grandfather let me go under water for the first time. I was scared, panicy and felt like I swallowed the whole shallow end of the pool, but my grandfather grabbed me and calmed me down.

God is just like that. These last few days I have been studying about faith and what it is. Hebrews 11 is where I went to first and verse one shot out at me:

"Now faith is being sure of what you hope for and certian of things you can not see"

As I read the verse over and over again, the word 'now' stands out. Why is that word there? Well because chapter 11 of Hebrews is flowing right out of chapter 10 (imagine that). The last two verses show that:

"38 But my righteous one will walk by faith, and if he shrinks back, I take no pleasure in him. 39 But we are not amoung those who shrink back and thus perish, but are amoung those who have faith and preserve their souls"

Faith is the corner stone of our relationships with God, but it is not always easy. He never said that it would be. So now I sit here and I think that I am hearing the voice of God say "jump" and I am about to get wet!

God Doesn't Make Since

I have probably had one of the hardest weeks ever-this past week.

I found out last Friday that my Grandfather had a stroke on Tuesday. This means that he wasn't going to make it to family day at UAM so my grandmother, dad and Debbie came over. The Weevils lost in a rough way and we were kind of down. I went to my dorm and stayed up playing Scatagories with some friends. I fell asleep at 1:45 am and was awakened by a phone call to get to the ER.

Well you know the rest of that Story.

This storm I am in seems to be ending, but I think that it might just be a clearing and there's another front coming through. Rob was telling us the other day that God doesn't make since in how he does things. His Word tells us that he doesn't give us more than we can handle, but I am beginning to sink. I need help.

Just be praying for me and my family.

God Rocked my World At Passion 07

Pulling into Atlanta, GA at 2 o'clock in the morning, I thought I knew exactally what to expect from this years Passion 07 conference. Little did I know that God was just going to rock my world.

It all started with Beth Moore's main session on Tuesday Morning. She talked about to really honor God, you have to humble yourself. This was something that I had always heard but never really knew how to do it. But she said it is just getting on your knees and know with all you are that you can do nothing without God, and living your life that way.

Then Francis Chan got up that night and pretty much made us search our hearts to find how deep our love was for God. And after a search of my heart, I knew that my love was very shallow.

The next day, instead of going to a break out session, I went to the prayer journey room and spent two hours on my face before God praying for him to put on my heart what I need to do with the rest of my life. He said GO! and I answered "wherever you need me". Iraq was on my heart so I went and talked to the Freedom Center people and they told me no, that I have to graduate first.

I didn't understand, God told me to go and then mand said no. Then Louie Giglio spoke to us that night. He said "you won't know when, you won't know how, you won't know where, God just wants you to be willing to GO!" It all made since after that.

So, I don't know where, when or how, all I know is that I am going and the Jesus is going with me.